Akhirnya gelisah menulis lagi.
Pernah baca, mungkin di kutipan-kutipan yang lewat di lini masa, "broken hearted people wrote the best love song". At this point, I am not broken hearted and this is ain't a love song. Similarity lies on the writing, gelisah-gelisah itu, sampai penawarnya, yang bikin kamu pengen nulis lagi.
Anyway, couple weeks ago I watched Zootopia for the first time. Here I am not gonna mumble about finding any Disney's easter eggs because that is John Negroni's duty.
It's about the feeling of renewing yourself all over again. Well, aku orang yang percaya kalau cerita-cerita dalam film itu adalah slice of life. Kadang kita nemuin kesamaan-kesamaan yang bikin mikir "this is so me". You know right, when it come to Disney's movie, it will lands to a spirit of making your dreams come true. Tapi beyond that, ketika lagi ada di some low points of our life, ada hal-hal lain yang lebih touching dibandingkan merealisasikan mimpi itu sendiri. Dan di Zootopia, aku menemukan nilai itu.
Believe me I told everyone I met after I watched the movie, "you should watch it, recharging banget!". The positivity of Judy Hopps is hitting me all the way around. Kalau udah liat film nya pasti ngerti deh, karakter Judy yang unbreakable dan always seek for the truth emang kuat banget dimunculkan dalam adegan dan dialog nya. And I don't know why but I think since I am no longer called 'a kid', dalam film-film sejenis gini jadi banyak nemuin makna lain yang pengen ditunjukin di film nya. Like when I watched Minnions in the movie theater last year, justru hal yang bikin ketawa itu how the filmmakers potrait England citizen by the way the acts, terus gimana Inside Out simply representing the journey of growing up is containing so many emotional mixed up. And what I see in Judy is, how she support herself.
Kebayang nggak, a cute little bunny who already believe that her dream is came true, have to facae the bitter reality and facing (too) many prejudice, not only from the team mate, team leader, and even her parents at home. This is dragging me back to a couple months ago, waktu itu lagi fed up banget dengan banyaknya tugas kuliah, kerja tim yang ngga balance, target-target yang nggak tercapai sesuai dengan ekspektasi, dan lain-lainnya. One of my team mates ask, "do you still have a spirit to continue it?", at that time, I was confused. I have to finish the thing that I have started, by keep doing my responsibility, but it feels like no space for me to share about that tiring-responsibility to anyone.
Then she ask again, "did your circle, from outside of this team, support you?". I think again, a lot of my closest friends said I am to tired, other people told me to stop, even that time I have a partner and he think somehow what I did is not good for me.
Until then, she said, "do you ever consider yourself as your own support system?". Pernah nggak sih, kepikiran kalau di dalam diri kita itu ada penyemangat, that is our inner voice. Pernah nggak sih, mematahkan argumen orang lain karena kita sangat yakin sama diri kita sendiri? Or simply, have you ever compliment yourself for things you have reached the whole time?
Judy, her parents didn't believe that she can be a cop. Chief Bogo, her team leader, underestimated her because he think a bunny was not a worth member. She's fighting the prejudice. Judy just keep going and prove them wrong. Dalam film Zootopia, ada tagline menarik, "Zootopia : where everyone can be anything". Judy keep that in her mind. Judy support herself to think that she is on the right track. Okay, we know how Judy reach her dream of being the first bunny cop. Tapi film ini bilang, nggak cukup loh, merealisasikan mimpi aja. so many things bigger are awaits, and reality is somehow sucks. Instead, film ini ngomongin gimana Judy prove herself, even she have reached her dream, karena kita nggak pernah tau kan, kalau apa yang kita liat sebagai mimpi itu juga se-ideal itu di mata orang lain?
Well unfortunately we live in a shared-world, right? You live under too many stereotypes of a zillion eyes. And somehow you will get tired and those so-called-support system won't save your broken heart. But remember, Judy taught us, to win that inner voice inside.
Hopefully I will keep this note to myself,
xx
Avi
